Nor did I expect to have so many emails from former Kingdom Kids and ex ICOC members saying “THANK YOU!As I read through the stories and emails my mom called me “Queen of the Damned” I am a huge Anne Rice fan, so I was flattered, but upon considering what she meant, the title rang true.Everything she said rang so true to me, because it’s nothing I had not heard before. As the acid from those years still eats away at my soul. Anyways, thanks for opening up those old wounds, I guess I need to mend em up a little better this time, lol.” A common theme, I “opened old wounds”. I have established in previous blogs that I process out loud… I think it has taken this long for me to realize that SOMEONE has to talk about it, and who better than me? As a parent myself, and a former Kingdom Kid, I have to say it does help me, even the slightest bit to hear these apologies, to be validated.
As a teen when I would bring up inconsistencies between The Bible and the church’s rules, or at least the Teen Ministry’s rules, I was told that I was in sin, that I was causing dissention. Looking back I see that these “leaders” did not have the answers, so they preferred that we didn’t think. Let’s see I must of been 13, not baptized yet when I met this boy at a pre-teen/teen event, I fell for him instantly.
It would be a few years before we both went through the intense process of the study of “kip’s notebook” and then getting baptized, but after we were both disciples, we were allowed, and encouraged to go on “dates”.
I feel obligated to be there because they tell me that’s what God says. If I miss “one meeting of the body” they say I am in sin, and I’m in sin if I can’t tithe and they want to know everything I do with my money.
They want me to get a divorce, they told me to fast and pray about it. When I noticed some shady shit I talked about it and they told me I was in sin! They prey on college students, they want them to quit school or their jobs if it interferes with 3-4 church meetings a week, but we still have to tithe.
If you REALLY thought I was lying, you wouldn’t be afraid of your congregation reading this.
You would not be worried that what I say may ring true…We are the damned, at least according to “The Church” and as far as I am concerned, they damned us.Some people who are members of at least one of the churches have forbidden their members from reading these blogs, they called them lies.When I posted my last two blogs about my experience in the ICOC ( That has never happened before, and I wrote them for my own benefit, I felt like I needed to. ” To be honest I didn’t expect this particular blog to be read 133 times in one day, or 100 times every following day for a week or so.I’m afraid I have news for you: First, I don’t have any reason to lie, secondly, if you continue reading you will see that this has not only been MY pain, so many others where hurt like me, WORSE than me.