I had been sure of God’s love, care, and interaction in my life even in the midst of pain and difficulties. The conclusion I dread is not, ‘So there’s no God after all.’ But, ‘So this is what God’s really like.
Deceive yourself no longer.’”I agonized over whether or not I had been wrong about God, over whether or not I could trust Him.
He was quiet for a moment and then said, “I don’t know ma’am.
I don’t know.”I also witnessed a judge, after learning of my husband’s actions, refer to my husband as a “man of integrity.” I’ve since learned this is quite common.
I can give general divorce help for men, though, my knowledge is based on Missouri divorce and child custody laws where I am licensed to practice.
Where I practice, the court “shall not award custody or unsupervised visitation of a child to a parent if such parent or any person residing with such parent has been found guilty of, or plead guilty to” certain offenses (enumerated and referenced therein) when a child was the victim.
And because of their fear, they needed someone to blame; turns out that someone was me.
If they could identify something I did wrong, something that they wouldn’t do, then their families were safe from harm.
We haven’t given up on church, either; together, we’re searching for a faith community that is safe and healthy.
After many years of therapy, prayer, and learning to trust people who are trustworthy, my life and faith are completely different from anything I could have imagined.
As a child I saw the original black-and-white version of Invasion of the Body Snatchers. And, even if he were to be healed, would I ever be able to trust him again?
If you’re not familiar with this movie, here’s the run down: ordinary people are replaced with exact alien replicas of themselves, and the body switch happens while they’re asleep. In the midst of this horror, there were some Christians who were wonderful, filled with love, wisdom, and support. He reassured me that I wasn’t to blame in all of this.
Through this whole process, I learned that much is required of those victimized, while little is asked of sex offenders.