When ever i am fed up with life and ask my parents why they named me Venkatraman my father replies “I was in Tirupati when i got news about your birth”. All i remembered about that trip was we were asked to sit in a huge que like cell and every few hours , the grill will be opened to reach the next few cells/rooms where devotees had to wait to take darshan of Lord Sri Venkateswara.
The 3 sides sides of the temple will be covered by rolling ourselves.
Then we will be allowed to have darshan of Lord Sri Venkateswara .
Suddenly i hear a voice, As soon as i heared this voice, i saw Lord Sri Venkateswara opening his eyes, It was not a ordinary way of simply opening friends.
It was as if his eyes were twinkling and like a flash light , he opened his eyes for a moment, closed it in fraction of second, again the eyes were opened.
Some strange feeling which made me feel this is a God of rich people, who blessed them for the money they offer in the temple and that Sri Venkateswara won’t bless ordinary people like me.
My father always used to say from 2005, you must go Tirupati because “The one who goes Tirupati and returns will have a positive change in their life ” In 2007, my neighbours planned to go Tirupati and i was asked to join them. Narasimha swamiji has mentioned in one of his books that the Guru of Saint shirdi sai baba is known as Vengusa and he has meditated in Tirumala for over 12 years worshipping Sri Venkateswara swamy.
I used to worship Lord Ganesha and Murugan a lot for years along with Shirdi Sai baba.
Somehow i never really had the attachment or lets say devotion on Lord Venkateswara of Tirumala , Tirupati as i felt having named after this God, he never favoured me and all the i desired in my career and personal life never happened.
Many sai devotees has contradictory views to this concept of Narasimha swamiji as they feel Shirdi Sai baba himself is a incarnation and that he has no Guru.